By ideklc | Apr 06 2016
Does my best friend have feelings for me? / Do I have feelings for him? / Does it even matter?
Now I'm Wondering
We've known each other since mid 2014, and we've talked literally almost every single day since we met. We can only hang out about once a month because we live four hours apart, but we understand each other better than anyone else. I know he's messed around with some girls, and I've dated some guys, and I don't know how he feels about the girls(He says he doesn't want to even consider getting married until he's 30, but that can always change), but none of the guys I've talked to have been worth pursuing a relationship with. I'm just confused. All of my friends say that he sounds like he's interested in me, and he told me last summer(2015) that he used to have a crush on me, but is his crush gone forever? I also, have some issues about what he's choosing to do with his life. He does drugs a lot, he doesn't know what he wants to do for a career, which is fine for a friend, but I don't know if I want a boyfriend who's so unsteady. I'm mostly just confused if I have feelings for him, or if I'm just lonely and he's the best guy around(texting at least). How do I know if I actually like him versus really good friend? What if he wouldn't be interested in me anymore? I love him as a friend, and I don't know what I would do without him. Please help me figure out my feelings.