By mermaid_ | Nov 25 2015
What's the deal?
Now I'm Wondering
First of all, let me say I'm timid when it comes to boys and flirting, thus I rarely recognize the signs of affection.
I met two boys, M and P, through mutual friends' wedding earlier this year (I've met M before, but it was just brief). After the wedding, we were having a blast on the dancefloor. M pulled me closer to dance with him, and the next thing I know he grabbed me around thighs and raised me up in the air (think Dirty Dancing Jennifer Lawrence style because I was so surprised :D ). It was very nice though. And he did it twice, I was quite impressed.
Later on, I was dancing to some swing/jive music with my friends and P asked me to dance with him. He was a really good dancer and I felt very relaxed with him, we got a bit goofy and had fun on the dancefloor. He even leaned me backward at the end. But then I got super shy and went away. He seemed a little confused, I could tell he was a bit into me but did nothing to pursue me.
Next on, our paths intertwined again on a party in their hometown a few months ago. P was very shy, but I noticed he was gazing at me when he thought I wasn't looking. I gathered my guts and made a remark about a super cool Bowie t-shirt he was wearing. We started to talk but then M came by and raised me in the air again, goofing around as always. When my feet hit the floor again, P was gone. I had to leave the party in a hurry because I needed to be somewhere else, but as I entered the car, I noticed P standing in the crowd, looking at me. He smiled at me and I smiled back.
Last weekend, I went to a party and both of them were there too. This time, P came with his new girlfriend. I was talking to some friends and M was constantly teasing me and making funny faces. P was very reserved, but I noticed him staring quite a few times. When we left the party, he looked me straight in the eyes, and I could see he still liked me, but I decided not to approach him since he had a girlfriend. I wanted to go home with some friends, but M wanted me to go to the afterparty with him and some friends. I decided to go, and P, seeing that I'd go, decided to go too, and went to the same car as me (his gf went home). M went with another car. When we arrived, P was so drunk he fell asleep in the car, and somebody drove him home. As we were dancing, M constantly pulled my beanie on my face, and then hid. One time I caught him and tried to do the same to him, but he grabbed my hands and hugged me from behind. Later, as me and M tried to find our friends at the afterparty, he yelled ''I'm here with the prettiest girl''.. When we went home, he sat next to me in the car, and pulled my beanie again. I tried to get back at him but he caught my hand and just held it until we got home.
Now I'm confused. What's the deal with these two? M is being so childish, and what's the deal with holding hands? P is obviously off the table because he has a gf, but does he still like me? I really like them both but I'm not sure what's going on here. Sorry for the lengthy message.